I wanna start with something FS told me…He said that he envied my situation, which was curious to me at first. He then went on to explain that he envied the freedom that I had to do what I want to do, and to enjoy this point in my life because I am so free and able to really focus on me and accomplishing my own goals. I really appreciated those words, because they were so timely. I’ve spent so much time focusing on what I don’t have, that I hadn’t looked at how positive my situation is. And he’s totally right. Sometimes it takes a friend to help redirect you to the good things that you may not see.
In other news, E called me. Which was very surprising. I certainly wasn’t expecting to hear from him. I had called him a few times, but after getting no response, I chalked it up to the game and released him the Island of Lost Men (my SATC heads remember that?). Apparently he will be back in the States in 3 weeks, and then he spent the rest of the conversation telling me how he isn’t sure that he believes in marriage anymore. I swear, there is some kind of chip implanted in each man that makes them question the institution of marriage. It basically went in one ear and out the other, though his arguments (using economics and logic) were kinda interesting. I’d probably give it some thought at some point. Once I got off the phone, I started thinking….and I’m kinda not feeling him right now…something has changed, like maybe his reluctance to talk about what he read in my blog, or maybe his somewhat cold and calculating behavior sometimes….I don’t know, I’ll just have to put it on the back burner for now.