I’m feeling antsy and I want to make some moves.
I’ve always been the type to get stuff done. I get an idea and I put together a plan and I make it happen, immediately. When I make up my mind about something, I make it happen with no hesitation.
Ten months ago, I married the love of my life. After our wedding, my focus has been on starting our life together. But I feel stuck because we’re unsure about the next path to take in our journey. We have several choices in front of us, but we don’t know which one to take. Because we can’t make a decision, we’re sitting in limbo. This is a feeling I hate – stuck in one place, unable to keep progressing forward.
We have so many options available to us, each with its own pros and cons. Should we stay in Minneapolis, or should we relocate? in order to relocate, at least one of us needs to find a job first. What cities should we look in? We have a few places we’re eyeing, but we haven’t made a firm decision on a place. If we stay here, how long do we want to stay? Do we want to buy a house? If we buy a house, we have to stay here for at least five years – is that something we can do? Do we want to try to have a baby? If we do, maybe I should stop looking for a new job, because if I get pregnant, I may not be able to take maternity leave. Do we want to have kids here in Minneapolis, where the schools are great but other things suck, or move somewhere with a better quality of life and put our future kids in private school?
The list of questions and possibilities goes on and on.
There are so many unknowns and no clear direction, and this frustrates me. I can’t make plans and make progress on the next phase of our life together, and this is a situation I’m not used to. There are so many possibilities open to us and no clear sign of which opportunity to take. Perhaps this is the Universe’s way of telling us to stay put until what’s meant for us manifests itself. I know the right thing will come at the right time and it’s already on its way to us, but it’s hard to stay still when you’re using to making moves. I suppose all I can do is try to enjoy each moment and wait to receive the message we’re meant to receive.
While I’m waiting, I’m going to keep moving in the areas that are under my control, and keep an eye out for my next sign.